thoughts on baby #6.

i still don't think i've wrapped my brain around the fact that we're having another baby.

i mean, i see my belly growing (daily), but it just isn't sinking in.

i've never had a "surprise" pregnancy (unless you count caedmon...and we were just surprised we got pregnant so quickly...like, on our honeymoon...yah, that was sweet).

for those of you who have had surprise babies...does it ever sink in?

we had our life planned.

5 was good.

5 was a lot.

i fully expected this little monkey to be the caboose to our train:

and now, just like that...there shall be another caboose.

with each passing milestone that kohen has gone through, i've mourned the fact that i wouldn't be going through it again...and now, i will be going through it again.

it's just all a lot to think about.

don't get me wrong...we are (now) excited about having another baby...it's just not the path we thought we would be taking.

i felt like i was finally "seeing the light at the end of the tunnel"...as kohen was getting older, i felt my life getting (somewhat) easier.  now we'll be starting over!

i'm just praying that this baby is another milo.

i mean, he was the best baby...slept a ton...ate like a champ...fat as could be...never made a peep.  we often had to make sure we had milo in the car when we would go places, cause we thought we had forgotten him at home.

  he was that quiet.

kohen was (and is) the exact opposite of this.  i'm sure the lord would love to give us another kohen.

i love the kid, but he wears me out.

or maybe all 5 of them wear me out.

or maybe this pregnancy wears me out.

whatever it is, i'm worn out.

so, as each day passes, and we get more and more closer to meeting another little anderson, i have to remind myself that my plans are just that...my plans.

not the lords.

and ultimately, i'd rather follow his path for our life, than mine.

so, i embrace this little peanut growing.

i know life will be that much harder, but i also know it will be that much sweeter.

mr. anderson and i make some cute babies, and i don't mind having another little asian to look at :)

but 6 kids.

seriously?

i used to think that people with 6 kids were crazy.

and soon, that shall be me.

lovely.

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